ytd was a super awesome day for me!

ytd met vergil at eunos first then went to meet kenneth at outram are there! LOL then we 3 went to meet gabriel and sean at vivo there lorh.. haha so kenneth vergil and gabriel went to buy something  so me and sean went t eat first! haha then after that went to vivo play lorh! we super bo liao uh.. super sia suay also cause we all wearing slippers right(expect for vergil) so we all go the water area at vivo outside go walk in the water with our slippers! haha had gr8 fun la!

then we all coled down after a while..then we serious liao..called preno up and told him lah...his reactions was like "orh".. i mean.. its damn wtf lah! so like it was damn obvious to DFFP that he didn't give a shit lah.. so whatever lorh... we just dun care abt him alr..

then we all went to kovan the petrol station buy food like free liddat! then we carry our stuffs all the way to the richard avenue playground! we really lepak sua sia! haha we just sit there.. draw here and there.. like till 6 plus! haha then gabriel had to go liao.. so we all walkd back to serangoon there lepak again! we talk alot of cock la! haha had some laughs then sean also had to go home liao.. so it was around like 7.20 then we really nothing to do liao! then kenneth needed to pee..then i andergil also.. so .... HAHAHA we all go some nearby block pee there! damn funny lah can! haa then after that went to some benches and just joke around ad all..

but then suddenly.. i felt god talking to me... cause like.. we were talking about christmas and all.. then kenneth was talking about hw his family nv celebrated christmas and hw much he wanted that experience! and slowly the topic change to his family problems.. i won't say it here but.. we both could really relate to each other cause i also had this problems.. i mean.. then god kept on bugging me! "talk to him abt me.." but i told god "cannot lah.." but then i felt something in me boiling.. i had to tell him! so i just blurted out abt christ dying for us and all.. and then i asked him as we we got up and walked "can i pray for you?" he was ok with it lah so i prayed for him and i really felt sense of relieve lorh....

yup..but today uh.. feeling alittle bit bored and anxious at the same time.. idk why.. maybe its emptiness or soemthing.. but i think its definately cause i miss her.. but oh well.. all part of god's plan and timing..

ytd some stuffs really opened my mind.. if you can do it why can't i? gan-mummy talked to me abt some stuffs...which really actuallymake alot of sense.. she talked abt having a clensed mouth .. or onts how can you preach the gospel with the same mouth? LOL .. as the days pass by i hope i'll be able to put her behind as a past...anyway today went to meet quek& preno to get a present for gan-mummmyyyy!!!(: so buy liao then walked to  ECP..we lepak awhile then ran into alot of ppl uh.. haha then we walked ALLLLL THE WAY to lagoon wanted to eat.. then suddenly kenneth called preno ask him meet them at hougang..so we all went lorh.. then when we finally reached,we sat down and talked so stuffs out..

i honestly felt the talk actually had alot of effect! i really hope that things would get back to normal! and i really hope that all things would fall in place!(: so after that had some jokes then we all go home lorh...me and preno toke 109 then go home lorh...

anyway on a personal note.. i've really been praying abt my relationship with my sherperd...i'm not trying to be one kind uh, but everytime i see other sheperds-sheeps all soo close and doing stuff tgt,i just can't help myself from being "dulan" and envying them...really hpe he'll share with me why is it so hard to be "normal"... i feel like we're strangers...if he can do it to his other sheeps,why can't he do the same from me?

Zzzzz.....

Wah! ytd must admit uh.. dawn really nagged like never b4! but really got me thinking.. cause really..if i asked myself this question, "if god asked you to give up _ _ _ _ _ _ _ for him, woud i really do it?" my answer would be no.. i mean i really gotta love god more than her... but its really hard ....

so anyway.. today when to whitesands first pei preno jia nasi lemak.. quite shiok uh! i tell u! when me and preno say "won't so suay", sure something  will happen wan! when we said one time,we saw judea's cell! so we were like.. okay moving on... then w say again and guess what! my dog got hit by a car! lucky only the legs injured uh..

then after that i wnt to meet up with the zone at sarfa tampines for the soccer thingy.. then at first we all got bored.. so me joel darren & darrick go play lan! then when we came back they all hadda leave! so i stayed on lorh! and st.pat's won! hehe!(: but like..felt damn down at the same time also lorh.. i mean.. whe i hadda go, i said by to everyone but when it came to her, i mean, what was i gonna say? she looked at me with those fury eyes with intentions to kill me if i didn't leave.. i really wanted to say it, but.. i just walked off.. afraid there wouldn't be a second chance.. soafter that, rushed home then when to church, blah blah.. then after that went to eat brazilian food at katong village! wah after the dinner they overcharged us by amost 150 dollars! the best part was,, my mum wanted to see the manager, but end up she WAS the manager! LOL so like diaozzzz...

haha so come back liao lorh.. honestly, feeling quite excited about service tmr! but at the same time, everytime i see her, i feel so down and heartbroken.. i'm always faking a smile in front of her.. but i think everyone noes that deep inside i feel my whole life just tearing apart bit by bit...

but this is what most ppl call "BGR".. part and parcel of life! but i hope its even  more meaningfull and true than any other BGR...